at my funeral, i hope they can’t stop saying how funny i was or at least how charming. they would say, “she was such a lovely girl and had a beautiful smile. she treated people well but was always so very sassy”. from the corner, i would agree but quietly as not to be swatted. some of them will trade my secrets. “did you know that nicole was only “5 foot 1 1/2, not 5 foot 2 like she told everyone?” “did you know that nicole used to like the taste of soap as a child?” i’d like to hope there are more of those anecdotes than tears, that way people are smiling at my memory and not crying because of the loss of me.